We're in month 5 and we're officially past the halfway point! My belly feels GIGANTIC and I am nervous to only be halfway. Seriously, I'm nervous. How big can this belly get???
I can feel the Bean kick and move all day now. It is an amazing feeling. It's also a really weird feeling. I'm almost never ready for it and it almost always takes me by surprise. Sometimes I feel a little flutter and sometimes I feel a legit kick or a punch. Not to take away from the beauty of it or anything, but it feels like I ate a bean burrito and that burrito is kicking me from the inside. Yeah I know, it's pretty awesome.
We went for a ultrasound yesterday which was sooo incredible! We saw the little Bean's face, hands and fingers and toes, legs and arms, heart and head. Everything is going really well and I feel really seriously blessed. I can't wait to meet this little Bean! We opted not to find out if it is a boy or a girl, which I find so exciting! OF COURSE I want to know if it's a little he or a little she but that is part of the beauty and mystery of having a baby.
If I'm honest, I really really love being pregnant but it also is almost nothing like I pictured. Growing up, my mental image of pregnant-me was almost like a mythical creature. I glowed and wore long flowing dresses. I somehow became more graceful (a gift I've never ever possessed) and my voice probably sweeter. I'm nothing like that. And that's okay. My back aches like you wouldn't believe and I've developed quite the little waddle. My posture has changed and I'm pretty sure my butt sticks out in a way that it didn't before. I am having more and more trouble sleeping at night and finding a comfortable position. I'm permanently tired. Not to mention that I cannot regularly go to the bathroom or pass gas when I need to. Sorry, but it's true. I am not the picture of grace. I'm a mom to be and my body is busy baking this little Bean and I love my job of being a vessel for this little person. It's very special to me.
What I'm craving:
Anything spicy. Yes it gives me heartburn. Yes it is so so so worth it.
What Mama's wearing:
Dresses! It's so hot here I can't bring myself to even try on my jeans to see if I can wear them. While I visited my fam in Texas (where it is currently Winter) I wore a lot of leggings (bless them), tunics, and dresses. I am finding it easier to find things to wear now that I have a full-on baby bump. It is easier to accentuate the little bump now that I've got one and I love showing it off.
P.S. - Sorry I skipped a few weeks. I'll make it up to you by posting some baby bump pictures soon! Cross my heart.